Monday, November 28, 2011

The Painter

If only he could paint what he feels
deep within, and not just what he sees,
his paintings would be transcendent.
But anymore, what he feels is elusive, hidden
somewhere beyond the descriptive,
beyond the stroke of his brush and the
complexities of his paint, beyond his ability
to put emotion and insight to canvas.

He's begun to question himself,
no longer the confident painter but now
far too introspective and unsure of his talent,
a talent that used to reveal itself with flare,
color and a successful style. Melancholy
has set in, frustrating any attempts
to get beyond the feeling of hopelessness.

Someone who would never equate
himself with the great painters, knowing
the limits of his own talent, he
nevertheless wonders, could this
be how Van Gogh felt in his despair?

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18 comments:

Bill said...

"He's begun to question himself." I know the feeling, Warren, as does anyone who tries to work creatively in any form – and you've done fine work in poetry and painting.

Through all my years as an English professor, I couldn't write poetry, because always, before I was halfway through line 2, I'd be criticizing line 1.

A great thing about haiku is that it sneaks up on you and is "done" before you know it. Then, and only then, you invite your inner critic to go to work.
re you know it.

Warren said...

Hi Bill - I don't know about your other endeavors with poetry, but when it comes to haiku you are a master and have been my mentor for as long as I have been aware of haiku. You should never doubt yourself with your talents at haiku - you "da man".

Thanks - Warren

Adelaide said...

I can only echo what Bill said about questioning one's ability to create. Lately, I feel that my haiku has gotten repetitious, that either I or somebody else has already written about the feeling or image.The only thing to do is to keep at it, whatever the creative endeavor is, even if we thing the work is not the best. Sometimes we are too hard on ourselves.

Adelaide

Warren said...

Hi Adelaide - Well, I'm glad to know I'm not alone - although I wouldn't wish the feeling on anyone, it's still easier knowing others experience the doldrums, creatively. I know the feeling passes - just give it time, I guess. Thanks for your comments - and I've never seen repetition in your haiku, or haiga - you're a terrific poet.

Warren

Kelly Marszycki said...

I wonder if there is something about late autumn when we hover on the cusp of winter and those long, lean weeks of cold and snow and white, an ever-increasingly despairing time of year, yes?

Magyar said...

poets
with our dry pen
we reach to deeper ink
in vagrant smudges of our sense
words wane

_m

Warren said...

Hi Kelly - You hit it right on the nail - it's more a mild despair - not bad enough to pop antidepressants. Thanks!

Warren

Warren said...

Love your poetry, Mag - you have a way of summing up certain poems and I appreciate it.

Thanks! Warren

Gillena Cox said...

i emphatise deeply in this painter's ode


much love...

Warren said...

I guess there's enough self-doubt to go around, huh, Gillena. Thanks for commenting.

Warren

Magyar said...

-hidden, somewhere beyond the deceptive-
... and we all search 'beyond.'

_m

Warren said...

The great beyond - a mystery worth exploring.

Thanks, Mag

Adelaide said...

Hi Warren,

It's been a while since you've posted. Hope all is well. Wishing you a Merry Christmas and all the best for 2012.

Adelaide

Warren said...

HI Adelaide - Been painting a lot more and don't seem to have the creative juices to handle both poetry and painting. Decided I wanted to make some money - how capitalistic, huh?

Thanks - Warren

Adelaide said...

I know what you mean about being creative in two areas. I've been working on my novel (just finished it) and have not done much with haiku. I try to write one in my journal every day, but they are not good ones. I feel I MUST do at least this much, so they get dashed off rather quickly and no time spent on revision. Maybe later. I'm still posting on my blog, but this doesn't take much time since I post only published work.

All the best to you and your family.

Adelaide

Warren said...

Well, kiddo - it sounds like you are much busier than am I. Writing a novel! Far more involved than painting. Good for you. You are a very special person, Adelaide.

Warren

Gillena Cox said...

Wishing you Joy in the season of Christmas and All Good Wishes for 2012

much love...

Warren said...

Same back at you, Gillena - thanks.